Change. It's a big word, you either hate it or love it. For me i think change can be a good thing it makes me stronger. At the same time it can be very difficult. In the long terms change can make you stronger, wiser, and honestly can teach you several things about yourself. From your limits, your values, and what you want to focus on in life. Over the past three years I have been scared or afraid to tell people about something that is very personal to me. I didn't want rumors to spread or people to judge the ones I love so dearly. Finally as this past year I started high school, which is for sure a new chapter of my life I thought it would be beneficial to share a secret that I have been keeping and having to cope without the support of friends. That is the ugly word "divorce". I quite honestly hate this word, absolutely hate it. At the same time though from this terrible word I have grown to be stronger not just with my family members as we have been going through this experience together but also with myself. Why you may ask I decided to share this information now through my blog? First off if I am going to share something this personal I am more than likely to do it in a way I am comfortable with. Which is definitely blogging, and I truly value those of you who read my blog and support me daily. If i'm having a bad day, or even a good day i love blogging about it. It's like my personal journal where i share my thoughts with the world. To me it's like a type of therapy. I always know it's there if i need to escape from the daily stresses. Secondly recently more changes in my life have occurred such as moving to two different households. More changes in the future will include meeting new people and opening my heart to the fact that my family will forever be my dad,mom, and sister. No matter if we live in separate houses, don't see each other daily, or don't eat dinner together every night. We are still a family, unlike most divorce parents we currently all still live a mile apart , still eat together, talk together, and travel together like a regular family would. I realize that divorce means my parents grew apart but our family will never grow apart.
Another big change as I have talked about in previous posts is the fact that my sister went to college this past August. I know this happens in just about every family, but this was an extremely hard change for me. Not being able to see my best friend daily. As you can tell she has been the one there for me on the days I thought I was nothing, or the days I thought the whole world hated me. She was the one there for me through all my dads hospitalizations due to Crohn's Disease, even those long nights where we didn't know if he would make it. We have always had each other through thick and thin and would do just about anything for each other. Even through these past three years with our parents divorce. She was there when I had no one else to cry on or talk to about divorce. Late nights asking for advice on sometimes the stupidest stuff such as " how to talk to my crush" lol. I know she's not dying and is only two hours away from me, but with all we have been through together it is hard not having her five steps away when I need her the most.
Lastly, if you couldn't already tell i graduated my childhood school and moved onto high school. Sure it was a big change, but the best kind of change. I joined my high school cheer team, in which i met most of my best friends from. Cheer certainly has kept me busy leading me not to have as much time to blog as I would have liked to have had. I would have not changed that for the world, the memories and friendships I have created through cheer are something I will never forget. I recently just got back from Nationals, which was an experience I will cherish for a lifetime. For now the season has ended giving me more time to blog, and work on other fun projects. Next year I hope to still cheer, but also to find a better balance between the two things I love so dearly. Besides cheer, i love the diversity of high school. The fact that all my classes are different. From French (which just might be the hardest language to learn), to dance, every class is a little bit different. That's probably my favorite part!
Either way if you are experiencing a change in your life good, or bad, just know you will get through it. In some way it will make you a better person.
I know your probably thinking why would you share this with us/ the internet? My purpose is to hopefully help someone out there experiencing changes, or one of these examples. I know personally I would have loved to have something to read to give me some hope while going through these specific changes. I am not asking for sympathy and quit frankly prefer for no comments on this post. As much as I love every single one of my readers and love your support I prefer just your respect to my family as I share these changes with you. Today I feel incredible blessed and surrounded by complete love, and quit frankly could not be happier. Change can be very difficult but just know it is for the better of you.
Always remember:
"Everything happens for a reason"
xoxo,
Classy Abbie
Another big change as I have talked about in previous posts is the fact that my sister went to college this past August. I know this happens in just about every family, but this was an extremely hard change for me. Not being able to see my best friend daily. As you can tell she has been the one there for me on the days I thought I was nothing, or the days I thought the whole world hated me. She was the one there for me through all my dads hospitalizations due to Crohn's Disease, even those long nights where we didn't know if he would make it. We have always had each other through thick and thin and would do just about anything for each other. Even through these past three years with our parents divorce. She was there when I had no one else to cry on or talk to about divorce. Late nights asking for advice on sometimes the stupidest stuff such as " how to talk to my crush" lol. I know she's not dying and is only two hours away from me, but with all we have been through together it is hard not having her five steps away when I need her the most.
Lastly, if you couldn't already tell i graduated my childhood school and moved onto high school. Sure it was a big change, but the best kind of change. I joined my high school cheer team, in which i met most of my best friends from. Cheer certainly has kept me busy leading me not to have as much time to blog as I would have liked to have had. I would have not changed that for the world, the memories and friendships I have created through cheer are something I will never forget. I recently just got back from Nationals, which was an experience I will cherish for a lifetime. For now the season has ended giving me more time to blog, and work on other fun projects. Next year I hope to still cheer, but also to find a better balance between the two things I love so dearly. Besides cheer, i love the diversity of high school. The fact that all my classes are different. From French (which just might be the hardest language to learn), to dance, every class is a little bit different. That's probably my favorite part!
Either way if you are experiencing a change in your life good, or bad, just know you will get through it. In some way it will make you a better person.
I know your probably thinking why would you share this with us/ the internet? My purpose is to hopefully help someone out there experiencing changes, or one of these examples. I know personally I would have loved to have something to read to give me some hope while going through these specific changes. I am not asking for sympathy and quit frankly prefer for no comments on this post. As much as I love every single one of my readers and love your support I prefer just your respect to my family as I share these changes with you. Today I feel incredible blessed and surrounded by complete love, and quit frankly could not be happier. Change can be very difficult but just know it is for the better of you.
Always remember:
"Everything happens for a reason"
xoxo,
Classy Abbie